dolly's world

i was fighting with others,
to be the best of all,
to be an apple of someone's eyes.
i jump, i hop, i make noise,
just to be in the spotlight.
each time, it disappointed me.
i was nelgected.
however, i did not give up.
i believe that one day 'the one' will come.

then one day, you came.
with the others, you choosed and choosed.
i hopped around, just to make you notice me.
finally, your that pearly eyes of yours met mine.
i was LOVE at first sight.

you asked HIM about me.
he said,"small small, very cute"
suddenly, you disappeared.
i thought, it was just another 'YOU'.
i walked back slowly, disappointed.
then, you appeared again.
this time, HE opened the door and reached out.
i knew, this is my luck.
i quickly reached out for HIS arms.
i am sure, very sure that HE is here for me.
i was carried out and put into the cage.

happiness in me,
you gave me LIFE.
you brought me home.

home sweet home.
my new home was wonderful~
everyone welcomes me.
i felt the warm and coziness.
i am in heaven, i told myself.

with love, tender, and care,
i grew.
bigger and bigger day by day.

you were so happy,
you invited your friends home.

on the day,
your friends saw me.
they were SHOCKED.
they panic, they shout, they scream.
i do not know why.
i hide in one corner, shivering.

you went over to comfort your friends.
i do not blame you.
one of your friends shouted aloud:
"what an BIG UGLY DOG!!!"

everyone thought that i do not understand.
i was sad.

with great disappointment,
you sent your friends home.
i thought,
you were always the most understanding one.
you kept very quiet the whole day.
i thought,
you were angry with your friends.
i gentlely licked your hand.
you did not respond.

i understand,
i retreated
i slept with tears.

i had a nightmare.
i was left all alone.
where are you?

i woke up,
in fright.
i felt tightness.
it does not feel like my usually bed.

in shock!
i realised that i was in that same cage years ago!
i 've never realised how LARGE i've grew.

YOU!
WHERE ARE YOU!
i barked,"MUMMY!MUMMY!"
no one knew what am i barking.

my barking attracted attentions.
more and more people came around.
i couldn't spot you!~
i was frightened.

then THEY came.
and carried me to a far far place.
far from home.

i cried, i barked.
no one cared.

finally, they let me out.
THEY are not YOU!~
i was afraid, but i stay strong.
i bite, eveytime they try to touch me.
for i am YOURS and no one else.

i refused to eat and drink.
i don't even think about it.
i only wish for YOU!~

days and weeks passed.
nothing had changed.
THEY had no choice.
THEY left me alone.

out of sudden,
i felt painess.
i cried.

i finally saw you.
i was so happy.
i reached out for you,
but failed.
i felt nothing,
totally nothing.

i realised,
i am in heaven with the lord.
he told me the whole story.
HEARTLESS YOU.

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hey people,
waited for a hell long time until the GOLDFISH turned into FOSSIL?! haahaa...
im back!!!~
had been really very busy nowadays.

about a week ago my sis introduced me a part time job.
i'm working as a part time photographer.
my boss is quite a famous guy on MULTIPLY, hoddermelvin.
learnt alot from him and the rest of the crew.

basically, we went places which have those taoist celebrations and take photos.
in our term, it is known as "da ri zi". To put it simply, it is the "birthday" of the deities.

most of the places i went so far are "yew kengs".
yew kengs are events similar to "chingay", except the fact that they are not multi-racial/multi-religious.yea...

the deities/gods will possess on the "chossen ones", known as the "dang ki", then they will sit on the floats and visit other temples.

my job is to take down those moments.yup...that is my job...